I've lost myself
again
set sail for nowhere
I found myself
standing
in the doorway
watching your back arch
like a bridge
over my troubled waters
breaking the silence
there is
a numbness in my hands
my head
swimming
and thoughts of the hem
of yhour dress
are further away
but the light around your head
is like a halo
through rippled glass
and it penetrates
this warm empty distance
to cold hard substance
to a feeling
I struggle to hold
and often wish to forget
vacancy
there's a falling
feeling
in my gut
that twists and curls
to keep from breaking away
in flight
fingers breaking
bones crushing
under the weight
of this strange skin
something I can't recognize
something I don't understand
my head feels like
embers and ash
white, dry, heat
swelling in my skull
I am blind in this fog